How one teen remembered Allah and turned her life around

How one teen remembered Allah

As most people do, I turned to Allah and Islam during the hard times of my life. It's a sad fact of life. When times are happy and life is good, no one feels obliged to turn towards his or her Deen (religion). It's all about living the moment.

After I had turned towards Allah, I approached a friend in a very casual manner, trying to encourage her to also turn towards Islam. Her reply chilled my blood. "Right now, my life is good, I'm happy and I don't need any change."

I thought to myself, better bite your tongue. I wanted to shake her and say, "Would you really want some tragic event to happen before waking up to Islam?" Obviously no one in his or her right mind would want to do so, but subconsciously, I feel everyone does.

I was no exception to that. I was on the brink of depression, as a result of a series of events that happened. Now looking back at it, it wasn't much, but being a teenager who had lost her sense of identity and purpose in life, it was the monster of all crises.

I had been separated from my best friends, snatched up away from my life and replaced in a place I had once called home. It was hard, and I was suffering. I used to find comfort, lying awake at night and staring at the stars, amazed at the fact that these were the same stars I stared at when I lived on the other side of the world.

My family, Alhamdu lillah (All Praise be to Allah), had all changed towards Islam in the past years. No one forced me to wear Hijab, and I didn't simply because I thought I wasn't ready. They did, however, expect me to dress modestly and most importantly offer my daily prayers.

My aunt used to take me to these classes held nearby, and I went when I could. I was in pain and I didn't quite understand why. And it happened so that the particular topic at that class I had attended was on why pain and suffering happens. The teacher said that we are put through hard times as a test, to see how we cope with it. To see if we will turn towards Siratul Mustaqeem (the Straight Path), or away from it.

It was that day that I learned that every bit of pain we endure, both emotional and physical, alleviates us from our punishments in the hereafter. It was then that I started truly understanding the ways of Allah, how everything that happens has a purpose and that I was supposed to learn from that.

It's been almost two and a half years since that period of my life. It took me a year and a half to actually start changing. I knew Islam, but I did not practice it the way a Muslim is supposed to. I thought I was happy, but deep down inside I knew that I was not.

I was a hypocrite, and as much as I tried denying it, I could not. It sank in and I accepted it and prayed that I find the right way. My conscience was not dead, but I had muted it. Before, I used to get the urge to start Hijab, yet I used to fight it. I performed Umra and I prayed continuously that the next time my conscience spoke to me, I would not only listen to it, but I would amplify it so that I could not ignore it.

Last Ramadan, late one night, Hijab got on my conscience and would not go away. I told myself that I was not ready, that there were many strings attached that I may not be able to fulfill, but with the right words from supportive friends I told myself that if I didn't start now, I would never start. And I believed that 200%. So I no longer had any excuse for not doing Hijab. So Alhamdu lillah, I finally put on my Hijab on December 31st, 1999 at the age of 18, and have been wearing it ever since.

After a month or so, I realized that Hijab was not as big a deal as I had thought. It was not difficult in the least. To this day there has never been a moment that I regretted Hijab, and for that I am so grateful, Alhamdu lillah. I immediately found many friends who also wear Hijab. These friends and my family were the greatest strength for my new found Iman (faith).

I occupied myself with more Masjid-oriented activities and attended more classes to increase my knowledge of our religion. I am grateful that I put my foot down and decided to start Hijab then, because had I not, who knows how long it would have taken for me to start.
How do I remember Allah and His magnificent ways?

When I step outside and marvel at the beauty of nature. When I stop to play with a baby and see how perplexing, yet perfect, the precious cycle of life is. When I go out and people stop to say As-Salaam-Wa-Alaikum to me. When I study the Quran and the Hadith of our beautiful Prophet Muhammad (peace and blessings be upon him) and how perfectly and completely it incorporates our lives and faith. When I pass by my fellow sisters in Islam adorned proudly and confidently in their Hijabs. Everything reminds me of Allah, and I can feel my love for Him, our Prophet, and our religion grow by the day.

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assalamualikum.i am so happy for you and i hope you find the goodness in the hijaab and your new life.i am 14 and i started wearing thehijab fulltime at the age of 13. i am also a practicing muslim and the hijaab did make me feel more stronger in imaan and taqwa. good luck with your future dear sister and i hope you find pece in your life with the hijaab.

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miskeen

hey! how are you! ..i just wanted to tell you that reading your article reminded me of 'me' basically..well not exactly but some bits, i started wearing the hijab at 18. i had no practice or time to think about it..just did it ...do you know where that came from...well my story is sad ...but my mother (allah bless her soul) died of breast cancer..so that was it for me..a mothers love out did it..if that makes sense. but i'm proud of you!

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new zealand

Assalamu Alaikum, It was wonderful how you have decided to wear the hijab and all... I am a born muslim, because my father is a muslim.. and i have to admit, ashamed, that i have no religion in me. and its nice to read about people who do and have the strength to follow... Wish all muslims the best...

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Sri Lanka

mashaallah sister , you are an inspiration to all the muslim girls out there who are thinking of wearing hijaab . May allah strengthen all our imaan and give us the tawfiq to practice islaam properly . May Allah reward all our efforts aameen

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Leicester, England

It was a Good storie really. And i Yawmal Qiyama I will be a Witness that u were wearing a Hijaab, insha ALLAH wa Tá'alaa. May u'r Good deed's be the Last deed's so u Can enter Jannah sister.

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From Yemen / Somalia.Live in Sweden..!

sallam i haven't got much time to tell u wat i think of wat u wrote but i can say that it was great and i enjoyed everybit of reading it.allahhafiz.

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oldham

salam alaikum warah matulah, mansha'allah sister ur story was perfect and it seems like u knew me i mean the way u think was same as mine, sister im 17 goin to 18 and i started wearing hijab since i was 5 roughly. i use 2 wear hijab bcoz i saw my mom wearing it. but no one ever told me basically what hijab is. i remember wen i was young i use 2 go 2 islamic school. in that school everyone was wearing hijab mansha'allah but no one knew what hijab was. so me myself i use 2 wear full hijab but truly it was so hard 2 me wallahi can u believe sisters i never felt confortable wearing that hijab but know since i came 2 this kufar place i started learning and practicing islam and im really proud of the way im at the moment allham dullilah. so sisters salam alaikum and say hi 2 every muslim insha'all. SISTERS MAY ALLAH OPEN OUR HEARTS AND MINDS ameeen.

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london

As Salaamu Alaikum wr wb! Alhamdulillah, It's good to know that Islam was always on your mind...that you never forgot about your religion. I'm really glad to know that. And mashallah, you decided, on your own, to start hijab. I'm 17 years old, and have been wearing hijab since I was the age of 1. My mother raised me to wear it, so I really didn't know any other way. What we all have to remember is that Hijab isn't JUST about the head scarf, it's about covering the whole body [except the face and hands]. These days you don't see many teens practicing Islam and when I hear about those that willingly start, it just makes me feel good that they have a better change at earning the love of Allah. Those of you who are forced to wear hijab, I want you to remember that Allah said to obey your parents except when they tell you to do something haraam. Wear hijab because they told you to, and do not despair! Inshallah, you will be rewarded for obeying Allah [swt] and you parents! Allahu Akbar!

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Ohio, USA

I think I should get as much help I can get how to learn to be a muslim and go by muslim ways.Just because in the past I have been treated bad by muslims.I dont know what religion I use to be I am Muslim now and going to learn alot about muslim life

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Philadelphia

This article is very well written. I feel the same now im 12 years old and i feel like im moving away from allah(SWT) i dont kno y but im going to take ur advice and go the right way enshallah i haven't wore the hijab yet but as soon as i understand islam i will put it on! enshallah

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Toronto ON

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