How one teen remembered Allah and turned her life around

How one teen remembered Allah

As most people do, I turned to Allah and Islam during the hard times of my life. It's a sad fact of life. When times are happy and life is good, no one feels obliged to turn towards his or her Deen (religion). It's all about living the moment.

After I had turned towards Allah, I approached a friend in a very casual manner, trying to encourage her to also turn towards Islam. Her reply chilled my blood. "Right now, my life is good, I'm happy and I don't need any change."

I thought to myself, better bite your tongue. I wanted to shake her and say, "Would you really want some tragic event to happen before waking up to Islam?" Obviously no one in his or her right mind would want to do so, but subconsciously, I feel everyone does.

I was no exception to that. I was on the brink of depression, as a result of a series of events that happened. Now looking back at it, it wasn't much, but being a teenager who had lost her sense of identity and purpose in life, it was the monster of all crises.

I had been separated from my best friends, snatched up away from my life and replaced in a place I had once called home. It was hard, and I was suffering. I used to find comfort, lying awake at night and staring at the stars, amazed at the fact that these were the same stars I stared at when I lived on the other side of the world.

My family, Alhamdu lillah (All Praise be to Allah), had all changed towards Islam in the past years. No one forced me to wear Hijab, and I didn't simply because I thought I wasn't ready. They did, however, expect me to dress modestly and most importantly offer my daily prayers.

My aunt used to take me to these classes held nearby, and I went when I could. I was in pain and I didn't quite understand why. And it happened so that the particular topic at that class I had attended was on why pain and suffering happens. The teacher said that we are put through hard times as a test, to see how we cope with it. To see if we will turn towards Siratul Mustaqeem (the Straight Path), or away from it.

It was that day that I learned that every bit of pain we endure, both emotional and physical, alleviates us from our punishments in the hereafter. It was then that I started truly understanding the ways of Allah, how everything that happens has a purpose and that I was supposed to learn from that.

It's been almost two and a half years since that period of my life. It took me a year and a half to actually start changing. I knew Islam, but I did not practice it the way a Muslim is supposed to. I thought I was happy, but deep down inside I knew that I was not.

I was a hypocrite, and as much as I tried denying it, I could not. It sank in and I accepted it and prayed that I find the right way. My conscience was not dead, but I had muted it. Before, I used to get the urge to start Hijab, yet I used to fight it. I performed Umra and I prayed continuously that the next time my conscience spoke to me, I would not only listen to it, but I would amplify it so that I could not ignore it.

Last Ramadan, late one night, Hijab got on my conscience and would not go away. I told myself that I was not ready, that there were many strings attached that I may not be able to fulfill, but with the right words from supportive friends I told myself that if I didn't start now, I would never start. And I believed that 200%. So I no longer had any excuse for not doing Hijab. So Alhamdu lillah, I finally put on my Hijab on December 31st, 1999 at the age of 18, and have been wearing it ever since.

After a month or so, I realized that Hijab was not as big a deal as I had thought. It was not difficult in the least. To this day there has never been a moment that I regretted Hijab, and for that I am so grateful, Alhamdu lillah. I immediately found many friends who also wear Hijab. These friends and my family were the greatest strength for my new found Iman (faith).

I occupied myself with more Masjid-oriented activities and attended more classes to increase my knowledge of our religion. I am grateful that I put my foot down and decided to start Hijab then, because had I not, who knows how long it would have taken for me to start.
How do I remember Allah and His magnificent ways?

When I step outside and marvel at the beauty of nature. When I stop to play with a baby and see how perplexing, yet perfect, the precious cycle of life is. When I go out and people stop to say As-Salaam-Wa-Alaikum to me. When I study the Quran and the Hadith of our beautiful Prophet Muhammad (peace and blessings be upon him) and how perfectly and completely it incorporates our lives and faith. When I pass by my fellow sisters in Islam adorned proudly and confidently in their Hijabs. Everything reminds me of Allah, and I can feel my love for Him, our Prophet, and our religion grow by the day.

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Aslamuyalakum Sisters and brothersMaryam I thank you for sharing ur stories. Alhimduliallah I have been wearing the hejiab ever since i could remember. but i think there is more to it then just wearing a hejiab. I really hope allah opens up my mind and Guide me and everyone esle to the straight path and i promise to be the best muslim as i can be. I loved everyone esle's comments by the way. wayalakum Wasalam

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MN, USA

s/a my dearest sis, first of all i must say your article waz FABULOUS!some people are really going to be rewarded with jannah inshAllah coz they have so much faith in the Almighty Allah. your article has surely taught me sumtin, as i am the only person in my WHOLE school dat wearz hijab!some people tease me by callin me names such as dishcloth or tablecloth or curtain head but alhamdulillah by the grace of Allah(SWT) it doesn't affect me a single bit. u have certainly pleased me wit ur article and it makes me feel WONDERFUL!i am only 12 years old n i started wearin hijab @ da age 10 and never once did i ever regret it. jazakallah!!!!!!your sister in islam, SUMAIYA****

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south africa

MASHALLAH!!!!!! KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK AND REMEMBER WE R NEVER ALONE, ALLAH IS ALWAYS THERE FOR US ALL....

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TORONTO

As Salaam Alikum, I am happy that Allah opened up your heart to live by, what he has presriced for his female slaves. I just recently started wearing Hijab almost a year now, and this has been the best year of my life!!! TABIR!!! TABIR!!! TAKBIR!!! May Allah help all his beleiving slaves to stay on the straight path and perform our duties sincerely for his sake. Ameen

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Wash,DC USA

i fully support all above comments of all nice people and nice religion islam

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al arz-allah

salaamz, subhanaallah!!!!!!!! i'm 14 and i also wear a hijab,i only started a week ago but i feel great. i feel your pain bout losin ur frends ( but aleast u only lost dem wen u went 2 da other side of the world). ive lost them because they think im going ova da limit wid islam, we r in the same class an every fink. but they wont associate wid me as much. coz they think im a religious freak. well anywayz good on u sister. after reading this article i feel i wanna keep my hijab, as i was havig second thorts. wasaalam.

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london

Mash Allah u where able to where hijab. but i wont well i dont think so any way two of my friends are muslim one wheres it already (we are 12) the other wont where it till she is married. i belive u should only where hijad if u feel it is right my mother does not where one and i do not feel it is right either. but i am glad that u dont care wat others think and listen to yr self, marsh allah.p.s i dont care wat other people think i do wat i belive is right and do as much as i can to contrabute to Islam.

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sallami think that was great mash-allah!i hope all the other muslim sisters in the world have the strengh and wisdom to wear a hijab.sallam

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england

ASALAAMULAIKUM! MASHAA ALLAH! this article is an article that ne1 can lern from. im 15 and have been on hajj with my family. since i hav been back iv started 2 wear hijaab. even @ skool where u wud only see about 4 muslims girls in hijaab and the rest in tight fitted trousers some with head scarves and some with different hair styles every day!!! the 1st day i wore hijaab 2 skool pple asked me "how cud u wear hijaab so quickly in life" my answer "i just can and i feel great!" im tellin u about my skool coz about 80% of the skool r muslim. WAS SALAAMULAIKUM!

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manchester

Salaamz to all my dear brothers and sisters...(this is a long one, but please bear with me...)MashaAllah, it is a very intreaguing article...I really relate to this sister, I myself was in her position not so long ago...where nothing makes sense... Alhumdulillah, a million times over, through many trials of life, and after feeling the sense of the depth of disgrace, Allah (Subhana WaTa'ala) chose to bring me out from the depth of darkness into the light...Life has been very different ever since... EVERYTHING, makes sense, every pain, every tear, every joy...My mother went home for good (To the sweet embrace of Allah, InshaAllah), a few months back, and SubhanAllah, Allah has made it so that we feel no regret, pain, or anger...No remorse of wanting her back...Alhumdulillah, everything happens for a reason...She had her time on earth, and her time ended...but ours still remains, we're still doing time on this earth...Alhumdulillah, Allah has indeed given us a wealth of relief, since those few moments of hardship...My father is marrying again, and it indeed feels like one of the happiest moments of our lives...He deserves this...MashaAllah, a beautiful mother of a beautiful 12 year old (my future lil sister), my future mother, deserves my father's love, after being a single mother since her daughter was born, she has focused her life simply on living for Allah and raising her daughter with the finest Islamic values... This is a relief from Allah for her patience...Again, however, peaople expect us (the children) to be justified in feeling jealous, upset, and uncomfortable ...But, a true Mu'min does not feel uncomfortable with Allah's Gracious Mercy, a Mu'min embraces Allah's Mercy with open arms... This is what it means to understand Allah's ways, and I'm sure this sister will greatly relate, when I say that there is an amazing sense of peace in understanding Allah's ways His Mercy, and His Will...And it took me many hard lessons in life to undertand that...I pray InshaAllah, that I finally have... And that He gives every Muslim, dwelling hardships, of any kind, this undertanding...Aameen...Beacuse every second in life has a purpose and a meaning...Allah has made it so, that a true Muslim never fails to understand Allah's Wisdom, regarding the mishaps, and mystries of life...Reasons for which are for Allah to know, and every human to discover...!!!

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London

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