Proud to be a "stranger"

Proud to be a "stranger"

Abdullah ibn Masud, said: "the Prophet (saw) said 'Islam began as something strange, and it will revert to being strange as it was in the beginning, so good tidings for the strangers.' Some asked, 'Who are the strangers?' He said, 'The ones who break away from their people (literally, 'tribes') for the sake of Islam.'" (Sahih Muslim, Ibn Majah)

There is an incredible lesson in the above Hadith, which we need to repeat to ourselves over and over again. As a 20-year-old Muslima, I find my practice of Islam feeling stranger by the day. There is a norm that we have to live up to in this society, and if we don't meet it, we will be called strangers.

Did amazing in school and could talk my way out of anything

When I was in high school, I was an average, overachieving teenager, with a serious superficial streak. I did amazing in school, could talk my way out of anything, and had to look as though I belonged on the modeling runways, that were called the high
school hallways.

A great education and an even better career lay ahead of me. I was the master of my own destiny, what more could I ask for?

I was no longer in control

While I was planning my Sweet 16 bash, my grandfather, who I loved a lot, fell ill and passed away.

Suddenly I wasn't in control. I saw someone moving on to the unknown. I had never been so near death before.

The realization hit then, that the tangible wasn't the ultimate reality. I could no longer find reason, purpose or consolation in good grades, praise or even good looks.

Everything lost its meaning for I saw my grandfather, without his worldly possessions, in a shroud. The only things he could take with him were his deeds and intentions.

Everything finally made sense, for as I prayed for Allah to give him ease in his grave, I thought of mine, as I prayed to meet him again in the Akhira, I had to think of preserving mine.

All I had ever strived for fell to pieces.

As the Quran replaced my pointless and juicy novels, I realized that of all creation, Allah has created us with a conscious, and free will. Why would we let our free will work against us?

Family, friends, and fortune are all relative, they would go as easy as they came. We had to take everything as a teacher, and learn to do better for the sake of our souls.

Could not be alone with myself

With all of this it became apparent, that living with the norm of society, I wasn't allowed to be alone with myself. I had to be surrounded with friends, or be reading some novel or other, and the music was always blaring in the background.

Feeling strangeness

Silence was deafening, and noise was the only peace. To communicate with Allah, and to pray, I felt strangeness when there was silence accompanied by peace as my heart turned to my Lord.

Working to please myself, would've only given me peace in this life, but just the mere intention of doing things for the sake of Allah, would preserve this life and the next.

Other young Muslims who were once with me have lost the strangeness

Five years have passed since that epiphanous age of mine and now I find my brothers and sisters, who had commenced the search with me are now leaving the Deen.

The folds of Islam are not satisfactory any more. When I ask them why their only answer is that Islam did not give anything back to them as a social system as a community. It did not feed their needs and their spiritual thirst. It had to do with the harshness of other Muslims.

I wonder about this a lot since it affects my faith as well as the faith of those who say it. Even though Allah has created us and has preferred us as a Jamaah the Prophet (peace and blessings be upon him) still acknowledged the time when there would be people struggling alone for righteousness.

And the only answer I can come up with is that this world is mostly a sowing ground. We can't reap everything here. That's why there is a day of accountability which will restore justice and mercy.

The strangeness does go away

Now as I struggle to maintain my Islam, I find practicing my faith in this world feels strange only so long as I surround myself with worldly things and people. When I turn to Allah's creation, I feel the strangeness fade away.

If nature, as it is subservient to the Will of the Creator, has harmony when the wind blows and rustles its leaves, I don't see why our souls and hearts can't move to the same command.

In our time, and our part of the world, if nothing is strange and nothing immoral, I guess it's only good then, if we feel connected to the strange.

'Good tidings for the strangers.'

Comments

An inspiring article, sincerely written.

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UK

Assalamo Alaikum wr.Bravo Amber, you did a great job, may Allah SWT give all of us courage to fight all our hidden demons..

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boston

Us Salamu alaikum, as a muslim growing up in the west I can relate. May Allah protect us from shaytan who is not so strange to the west.

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Canada

Assalamualiakum, that was just the most captivating story!May Allah bless you and all Muslims and may Allah bring us closer to Him and the Prophet (pbuh)

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windsor

I found that I related to your article in some ways, but I felt that some other parts were difficult to understand.

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USA

Asalamu alaikum,Mashallah, very well writen and inspiring...

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US

Dear Sister, AAYou have very nicely exposed the feelings of a 'yet normal' young person for lots of parents to review their ways with deep thought.

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Jeddah

There are no words to describe this article. It's sincere, heart felt and has alot of passion. ppl believe we are strangers. not only to each other but to the truth. look towards Allah and repent and just ask to be placed onto the straight path and be granted Jannah. this site is great.wassalam

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uk

Bismillah As'salamu AlaikumI appriciate the honest reflection written here...Especially the part about being alone with oneself..needing noise to find peace..Something many people should stop to ponder about :)

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CA

This is incredible! I really admire this writer,this is a really great artical....I wish the world to read it....subhanallah...preach on sister.

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MN

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